It's been a while and in my (blogging) absence I have gained a wonderful 5 kilos (11 lbs)! Wow, I am so excited about it because now I have to lose it allllllll oooooooverrrrrr againnnnnnnnn! I am such an idiot! I have got to STOP giving up! I feel like this was made just for me......
I've had a bit of a rough time lately and how do I deal with it? I stop! I stopped caring about what I ate, it's been an all-round-non-stop binge fest with no exercise, not a squat or sit-up in sight. Basically, I just stopped caring about myself. The worst part of it all is that I knew I was putting weight back on, I could feel it on my body before I even stood on the scales, but I just kept going and going and going.
All those self-hating, negative feelings that I have worked so hard at getting rid of started flowing back so easily and that's when I decided to stop not caring. I have gone back to Weight Watchers to make it all a little easier for me. I like having a schedule to follow, I like to plan things and have lists and WW has a healthy check list for each day and I am looking forward to checking everything off of it every day.
I am glad I have access to the recipes again and I feel ready to focus. I am such an emotional eater and all it causes me to do is sabotage any progress I have made. I have also simplified my life by deleting most of my social networking sites - tumblr, instagram, daily mile, twitter and some others. They were taking up too much time that should have been used elsewhere. I came so, so close to deleting this blog too, but am very glad I decided against it, I do so much better when I am blogging here. The bottom line is I don't want to feel like this anymore :)
Yes I can do it! And I'm going to do it!
I have an end of year singing concert in December and I refuse to stand up on that stage in front of hundred's of people at my current weight. I am already freaking out about having to get up on the stage, but I know I will feel a thousand times better about it if I have lost at least 10 - 15 kilos. I am letting my singing be my motivation.
Please share with me......
- Have you ever done something you were terrified of?
- if so, how did you calm yourself?
- How do you deal with unwanted weight gain?
- What is your main motivation to lose weight / get or stay healthy?